Monday, December 23, 2013

Idols & graduations

I just want to share a post by AIDOL-san about idols and graduations as I am also feeling the same way as him. -yes, during Acchan's graduation.

I just copy paste from his webpage. Here it is.

-----"I feel like we’ve recently been bombarded with idol graduations. Well, probably not recently. But the last two ones hit close to home. Because they were my friends’ Oshimen. The graduations caused great pain and sadness for them and I thought maybe sharing my graduation story would shed some light on the darkness they currently feel.

I started liking idols way back in October 2005, starting with Morning Musume. An angel by the name Kamei Eri caught my eye. With Morning Musume, there was only really one or two graduations a year, but I thought that it was a natural thing to happen. I was sad with every graduation but it was never that bad. I didn’t understand the people who treated idol graduations as something that turned their lives upside down. Until that one fateful day on August 8th, 2010.

When Eri announced her graduation, it was at the last day of the Fall tour concert. As usual, I started lurking around the forums to see what they were talking about during MC or any special happenings during the show. First live report came and it was “Junjun, Linlin and Eri will be graduating”.

I was stumped. The forum thread quickly gained a few pages in an instant. We all couldn’t believe it. I didn’t believe it. Then, someone uploaded a recording of the concert. With a heavy heart and still in a state of disbelief, I took a listen.

The announcement was clear. Tsunku (Momusu’s producer) was called out, then he started announce the names of the members who will be graduating. He said Linlin’s name first, followed by a huge “Ehhhhh” from the crowd. Then, Junjun’s name and an even bigger “EHHHHH“. Then, it was a small silence.

“Kamei Eri.”

The crowd was noisy and everyone was in an uproar. I remember Linlin, Junjun and Eri gave a speech later but I couldn’t listen. I just sat there with the earphone in my ear and stayed in silence. The pain of my heart was too agonizing. All I could feel is this emotional pressure like someone is grabbing my heart and squeezing it slowly until it was hard for me to breathe. It was as if my heart stop beating and at any moment it would break out of my chest. It was unbearable. My oshi just announced her graduation. I was broken.

The next day, a clip from the concert made it into the morning news. Putting images to match the recording I heard the day before was worse. I listened to their reason for graduating and my heart sank some more. Eri is graduating because of a severe skin condition. God damnit, why must it be that she graduates for the saddest reason ever. I can’t even hate her for graduating. I just hated myself because I couldn’t stop crying.

For the next 4 months, it was torture. I bought every single thing they released thinking this is Eri’s last one. Every single, every album, every photopack, every photobook, every piece of merchandise. You name it, I got it. You see, in 2010, I had just started working. I didn’t have enough money to fly over to Japan but I gave all I had to buy every single thing that has Kamei Eri on it.

On 15th December 2010, the dreaded day arrived. I spent the whole day crying and holed up in my room. I didn’t even watch her graduation concert. In fact, I still haven’t. Maybe my delusional self likes to think she’s still in the group. I don’t know. Call me silly, but Kamei Eri wasn’t just any idol. And this wasn’t just an idol group. All I know is that my Oshimen graduated, and it left a hole in my heart. It will never be the same.

2 months passed by and there were several rumors of Eri. Some said that she was in Hawaii. Some rumors said she was getting married. Another rumor mentioned that she has been sleeping ever since her graduation. And one random day in February, after a crappy day at work, I did my daily ritual of reading the Eri thread. Someone reported that Eri’s sister uploaded a picture of Eri on her blog. Oh, the joy it brought me! She has been resting ever since her graduation and the news I heard of her was always secondhand or rumors. But seeing a recent picture of her gave me more joy than I could every imagined. She looked well. She looked beautiful. She looked happy. And once again, without even realizing it, I cried. Even after graduation, she managed to cheer me up.

I’m not going to lie, graduations are hard. You think you signed up for a lifetime of happiness watching Japanese girls singing and dancing but the setback is that you develop these unfortunate emotional state called feelings. It didn’t matter if the graduation was planned or a surprise. It didn’t matter if you anticipated the graduation or not. It didn’t matter if you’ve been through hundreds of idol graduations. Every time an idol graduates, it sucks. And it sucks real bad when that idol is your Oshimen.

After 3 years, I still feel an air of sadness about it. Now, I’m numbed with graduations since, I don’t think any amount of sadness can rival the feelings I felt on August 8th, 2010. And when I see my friends’ Oshi graduating, I keep going back to that day. And I know what it feels like. We might not have the same Oshi, we might not even like the same group, but the feelings you feel when your oshi is graduating? I’ve been through that. So to quote a meme, “I know that feel bro”.

I don’t know what plans Eri has in the future but she already has my full support. If she wants to continue her studies, I wish her all the best. If she wants to be a voice actor, I’ll watch every episode of her anime. If she wants to be an actress, I’ll watch every drama that stars her. If she wants to come back and sing, I will cheer the loudest in the crowd. And if she wants to live a normal life, I wish her the utmost health and happiness.

So in short, yes, graduations are hard. But the support you give can always be continuous. And when you see new pictures or news of her, I swear it’s the happiness you feel right there and then, knowing she’s still living her life fully even after graduation… that feeling of happiness is unbeatable."---

Yes, i know that feeling AIDOL-san! 

I feel like I wanna share for a short, what happen to me after Acchan announce her graduation. 

Acchan announce her graduation during last day of Saitama Super Arena concert, which is the third day. During that time, I am still study and have to attend class, doing assignment etc, so I did not actually pay attention to any of AKB48 concert. Just waiting for someone to post it at Facebook group or at tumblr. 

Then on this particular day after back to my room from attending class, I open Facebook and see this post. "Maeda Atsuko Announce her Graduation!" 

I read it, and I cannot really think for a sec. I feel, is this for real? Acchan grad?? For your info, before Acchan announce her graduation, there is not really a top member who announce their graduation. The latest one if not mistaken is because of scandal (i cannot recall which one).

This is during that moment of graduation announcement. Yes, I tend to not watch this part everytime I watch Saitama Super Arena concert. I just skip this 3rd day cause it still hurt. Even AIDOL-san is hurt after 3 years of Eririn graduation, Acchan is just last year. The wound is still there but almost heal. 

Acchan reason to graduate is simple : to pursue her dream as actress. Yes, she have stated it since her auditions to be in AKB that her dream is she wants to be an actress. I am totally support her since she is good in acting. Okay, back to grad announcement. Since the day I heard about the graduation, I feel so depressed, I cannot focused in the class, when I am alone, I always thinking of Acchan..and her smile..(she is one of the members that have a best smile), I talk to my best friend about this, but she cannot do anything since she is not a fan of AKB or Acchan. So basically I am alone that time. I have to keep my feeling together with me and sharing the same thought with some other fan. 

Acchan announcing her graduation on Feb and her graduation date is still have not decided yet. A few months after that, it is announce that her graduation is after their Tokyo Dome Dream Concert on 27th August. Same as what AIDOL-san have going through, he have bought every single, every album, every photobook or every merchandise that have Eririn in it. Same as me, but since I am still study, I just managed to buy last AKB48 album with Acchan in it : 1830m. I am still planning to buy her last photobook later and other her idol stuff during her idol era. 

Now, after one year of her graduation, she have release her 3rd single, Time Machine Nante Iranai and I have bought type A, even though I want to buy all type, but I have to buy NMB48 Kamonegix single too (my wallet T.T), and she will release her 4th single on Feb next year, entitled Seventh Code, same as her latest movie. She have starred in a few movies already and I am looking forward for it. She have grown so beautifully and getting prettier and skinnier. She even managed to get boyfriend. I am so happy for her as long as she is happy.

Well I must say, AKB after Acchan(AA) grad is in a mess looking for a new center. Management and Aki-P have put a new member to push as a center. Besides, AA era, there is too many member who decided to graduates too,--Masuda Yuka, Kasai Tomomi, Shinoda Mariko, Akimoto Sayaka, Itano Tomomi, and the latest one is Sato Amina, a member who loves AKB than Takamina herself. She wants to pursue her dream as seiyuu. Goodluck to her. 

That's all. I haven't sharing in my blog for a very long time. After read what AIDOL-san have wrote, it makes me wanna wrote bout my experience too. Yes, idol is not just an idol, like AIDOL-san have stated :  " Call me silly, but Kamei Eri wasn’t just any idol. And this wasn’t just an idol group. All I know is that my Oshimen graduated, and it left a hole in my heart. It will never be the same. "

Yes, that is totally true. I am happy Acchan has become an idol. She is forever the queen, and absolute ace for AKB48. :)

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Yagura Fuuko to Team A

source from Melos no Michi blog :

With today's [AKB48 Group Rinji Soukai] Concert at Nippon Budokan, we got a couple of member promotions as well as shocking member shuffles. First of all, the remaining 12th generation kenkyuusei were promoted today.

Sasaki Yukari promoted to Team A. 
Hirata Rina promoted to Team K.
Oomori Miyu promoted to Team B.

Last year during Tokyo Dome concert it was announced that Yokoyama Yui, Kitahara Rie, Kotani Riho and Ishida Anna will hold concurrent positions in NMB48SKE48 and AKB48 respectively. Today the 3 members were released from their concurrent positions with new members from AKB filling them. Not only them but a lot of members were transferred to different teams, now holding posts in two teams.

Concurrent position cancellations
AKB48 Team K Kitahara Rie is no longer in SKE48 Team S
AKB48 Team A Yokoyama Yui is no longer in NMB48 Team N
SKE48 Team S Ishida Anna is no longer in AKB48 Team B
NMB48 Team N Kotani Riho is no longer in AKB48 Team A 

New concurrent positions
Oba Mina → AKB48 Team B / SKE48 Team KII
Ichikawa Miori → AKB48 Team B / NMB48 Team N
Furuhata Nao → SKE48 Team E / AKB48 Team K
Yagura Fuuko → NMB48 Team M / AKB48 Team A
Kodama Haruka → HKT48 Team H / AKB48 Team A
Miyazawa Sae → SNH48 / AKB48 Team K
Suzuki Mariya → SNH48 / AKB48 Team A
Takajo Aki → JKT48 / AKB48 Team B

Along with that Sashihara Rino holds a position as the HKT48 theater manager as well as HKT48 Team H member.

I'm glad about the promotions because it was high time for the three to be promoted. About the transfer to teams, I am dreading that this is already going to be a thing for 48 group now. Also Sasshi as manager, I'm definitely not sure about this decision. "

okay, can we go back to the part of the new concurrent positions that is Yagura Fuuko → NMB48 Team M / AKB48 Team A. 

When i first received this news i feel sooooooo happy ! 
yeah, cause finally Fuu have given a chance to being exposed herself to others, especially AKB48 wotas and fans. Now, she will be recognize and I hope more fans will vote for her for the upcoming sousenkyo (general election). 

Yes, for the voting single, entitled SAYONARA CRAWL, Fuu will be paired with Yukirin. omaigaddd! this is such a high honor for Fuu to be pair with Yukirin. 

congratulations Fuu, I will always support you. Now I will give my full attention to AKB48 Team A as well as NMB48 Team M. Just after my heart is broken with AKB48 finally this is the turning point for me to look at the AKB48 back. 

Lastly, please do vote for Fuu aka YAGURA FUUKO.!!

p.s : i will start my campaign right after the PRU is finish. lol

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Bye AKB48 and hello NMB48

Hye! Its been a long time i haven't upload or post any entry.
I am feeling too lazy to post and since today is a weekend,
I have more free time to spare, lol. so i decided to update my blog :)

Today I prefer not to talk about what currently happen in my life.
But I wanna talk bout my new favourite group after AKB48, that is NMB48.
NMB not a new group actually, but I have just currently give my attention to them
since I have no longer interested with AKB48.

--> no longer interested with AKB48??? WHYYYYY??

okay, first of all, let me tell you bout this. But I hope no fans will be butt hurt with what will I am saying here cause because this is just merely my opinion. okay? peace!

First, that is because my NUMBER ONE oshi have graduated. who? and of course, Acchan. Last and this year, too many members and the senpai of AKB48 will graduate. SKE48 too have a mass graduate members with 9 members will graduate. okay, ignore the graduate topic here, its all about Acchan. After almost a year, I still mourn about her graduation from AKB48, okay, I know I am a bit exaggerated, maybe because I know about AKB and know Acchan a year before she graduate which is too late for me to support her in AKB and in General Election as well. This is hurt for me because there is so much I don't know bout her, drama, song, concert, stage etc. This is because, AKB have been debuted 6 years ago that is on 2006 and I just know about AKB and Acchan on 2011. Can you imagine how much things about AKB that I have left? For a new fan like me, will understand this feeling.


Second, okay lets say enough with Acchan graduation topic, I have to let go and find the new oshi with the members who still in AKB. This is not easy, really NOT that easy. This is because, one does not easily have oshi or bias. The first girl I know in AKB is Yuko but her level is not the same with Acchan. Yuko and Acchan is different person. So, the issue here is, who will replace Acchan position? Even though Yuko is always after Acchan, but Aki-P will always wanna find the new face from the lower generation, especially the 9th generation because the 9 gen is his favourite (this is what most people i know say). Look at the member he push, and mostly is from the 9 gen.

Acchan & Yuko

But the huge problem here is, the member who being push is not my favorite. I am sorry to say, but different people have different type of idol they will like.
The members who being push is of course, Paruru or Shimazaki Haruka. After the Jankenpon tournament, there is Paruru everywhere. Now even at the concert, she will be standing with the top senbatsu members.  i know that is Aki-P strategy to find for a new Ace and Center for the future AKB since she is still young and obviously his favorite. Do not mention about she being center in the drama Majisuka Prison and Shiritsu Bakaleya. Besides that, she is also being the center of the new Team B alongside with Yukirin.

And since that, Paru seems to be push to be in the center alongside with Mayuyu. Yes, AKB double center, since they are in the same age.

Aki-P cant throw away Mayu since she is at the Top 3 list of senbatsu members. And to be the worst for me, triple center for their latest single, So Long! consist of Mayuyu, Paruru and Jurina. I am sorry to say here that Jurina is not my favorite. 

See the three girls at the center. 

--> Ehh? where is Yuko? She is No.1 in General Election right?

Yes, but I think Aki-P put this three as a center in So Long as they are still in their teenage rather than Yuko who is already in 20s. So the concept of graduation theme is quite not suitable with Yuko. But still Yuko is the center in the So Long drama, again, alongside with Jurina. (meh..).

Okay, forget about Paruru, another girl who is being pushed is Riichan or Kawaei Rina which is also not my fav. Same like Paruru being center alongside Yukirin in Team B, Riichan also being center alongside with Mayuyu in Team A.

She also have many screen time in First Rabbit pv more than Paruru. (Aki-P, I can see your strategy.Lol)
Okay, the main issue here is, the pushed member in AKB now is not my favorite which my heart can take it anymore (lol) 

Mayuyu : My feelings toward Mayu is just so-so. She is cute, have a full package of idol, not an annoying type of girl and also polite. But she does not capture my heart as Acchan and Yuko did. :)

Paruru : She is cute, polite and shy but putting her suddenly in the center is a NO to me. I also expect that she will be in the senbatsu ranking this coming General Election.

Riichan : I have nothing else to say. 

Jurina : She is one of the top ranking in Aki-P fav member. She being push since SKE debut alongside with Matsui Rena and now she is also in SKE and AKB Team K center with Yuko. Sometimes, I don't like some of Jurina attitude which looks like annoying to me. (you mad?)

---> Team K center? wth? she is from SKE right? why does she become Team K center? Aki-P for that. -.-

Since my half of my heart goes together with Acchan, now half of my heart trying to find the new oshi. Since AKB is not a place to go, and of course not SKE (cause there is Jurina) then my heart goes to NMB48. :D

Okay, let me tell you bout it.
At first, I know the center for NMB48 is Sayanee but she also did not capture my heart. But the one who able to get my attention is Milky or Watanabe Miyuki.

omaigad, she is cute. cuteness overload. For me, her face have a perfect symmetry of cuteness ( eh? ) lol 
 Milky is being NMB center alongside with Sayanee. This two have been a rival in general election and also in the photobook selling which being won by Milky. While in general election, Sayanee overpass Milky by getting in the 18th rank and Milky 19th. Goodluck with the next general election, I hope both of you still in the undergirls rank. :D

Then, after milky I know this girl. She is still young, but she is so beautiful. She is just 16 now but imagine in three years time, her level of beautiful will be overflow. lol

yes, there she is, Yagura Fuuko or Fuuchan.

The good thing is, she is the center of Team M. Ermagherrdd.. Thanks to Aki-P for putting her as a center. At first, Eriko Jo is the center of Team M, but since she have graduated, Fuuchan is the one who replace her. ( em..should i say thanks to Jo? *kidding)

This two is my oshi, but I also have a side oshi ( eh? whatever..) which is Akarin (Yoshida akari) and Keicchi (jonishi kei). This two also a senbatsu member of NMB. 




* eh, in the pic above she looks like UEE. 

Another one bonus point for NMB is their dance is so powerful and sharp. If you know Yuko, she is one in AKB who is energetic and can dance a powerful dance. But in NMB, imagine that there is 16 Yuko in a stage. Omaigaddd.. 

Well.. that all for now, I hope no one is butt hurt with my entry above. It is merely just my opinion. If you have your own opinion to share, just put your comment below. 

Now, please excuse me, I wanna watch the concert and also NMB Geinin first. Bye2 :D



Friday, November 9, 2012

AKB48 UZA unboxing

AKB48 have released their 28th single on 31st October
and of course i am one of the fan that bought the single :)

After a week waiting, then finally mine was arrived.

I bought type B the one with Paruru at the center of the cover.

Mayuyu and Jurina is the bonus picture from HMV.
For the picture inside the single, i got UG Yamada Nana picture.

Other than UZA, i also bought other 3 CDs.

I bought Acchan : Flower single, Tomochin : Fuini and Team Dragon : Kokoro no Hane for Dragon Ball OST. :)

Gonna buy the next single, that is the Janken single : 29th single : Eien Pressure cause the song i vote for the MV Request is WIN!!

Well for your information i vote for First Rabbit and it got second place after Team B Oshi.
Since now i am the team B oshi for the new team B, i am not buying it cause they gonna make the PV using the old team :)

Jya, matta ne :)

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Maeda Atsuko twitter account~~~!!

One of my happiest day finally came!

My favourite idol finally have her own twitter account!! OMG!
Until now there is only a few AKB48 members who own twitter.

The one with the many follower is Mariko-sama :  1,323,571 followers and Kojiharu : 990,847 followers.

Acchan just make her twitter account in less than 1 hour and until i am writing the entry she just hit a 100k follower!

Actually i am not sure either this is the real Acchan or not but since she tweeting with Mariko sama and Kojiharu then i bet this is real. 
Other fan also said so. 

A few minutes before, taken from my phone :

a few moments after :

And finally Mariko sama tweet and she congratulated for Acchan Twitter debut. Lol

Mariko-sama is such a nice friend. :)

Her fan are super excited, including me. Lol.
Then i tweet to her welcoming her to Twitter :) 
Not sure bout the grammar but i seek help from one of her fan too. Nice right, fan help other fan :)

Latest until now : 122,575 follower.

I hope that she can exceed Mariko-sama follower and get 1m follower in a week. 
Do not underestimate her fan base even after she graduated from AKB48. 

And hey you! yes you, the one who reading this entry, please do follow
Acchan twitter account by clicking here : 

follow her okay. Acchan said peace :) wink wink wink!

Friday, October 26, 2012

Flight delayed 15 hours

For the first time in my life,
this is the longest flight delayed i have ever experience..huhu

My flight was scheduled on 9.25p.m.
At first they said that it will be delayed until 9.40p.m.
Then when i asked the staff at the gate he said that the flight was cancelled and i was like..... (ΦдΦ)

Then they asked me to go to the service counter to rearranged my flight and when i arrived there,
there was a customer who was really upset and angry with the situation. It seems like the aunt has something important to do on the tomorrow morning.

Why it was cancelled?
The staff have said something like the airport at KK is currently black out yada yada yada..

So my flight was rearranged and the only available flight for me is on the tomorrow afternoon : 12.00p.m. OMG.

So i have to sleep in the airport and this is my first time.
Luckily for me, i met my secondary school friend here.
He also going to KK and his flight also cancelled and we have the same flight on the afternoon.

I watched Captain America movie on my lappy and i am going to sleep on 2.30a.m.

There was only few of people on that time but around 4.30a.m. omg,
suddenly the airport was crowded and i can't barely sleep!

on 2.30a.m

on 4.30a.m.

Thanks to my friend he gave me a cup of coffee..wehee..old townヾ(*´▽`*)ノ

until i finished typing this entry, i am still sitting here waiting for my flight and SO SLEEPY! ( ̄ー ̄)
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Flower bonus picture

I totally forgot to write an entry about this..

Remember when I bought Acchan - Flower single,
the shop forgot to includes the bonus pic.

So i emailed the shop and it took almost one week to respond and on the second week, i got my pics.

From the shop. They post using airmail.

my precious Acchan pic. (゚∀゚)

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